I put my emotional struggles with sobriety and anxiety on canvas

darkness rain

"darkness rain" is about hope, in all the darkness she never gives in. She stands firm and fights back against the darkness as it rains down.

24 x 36 Acrylic (eggshells, glitter, feathers, stucco, glow in the dark paint) on canvas FOR SALE

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journey

concrete sighting

"concrete sighting" represents immovable will, in the face of everything to stand firm.

24x36 Acrylic (salt, glitter, feathers, glow in the dark paint) on canvas FOR SALE

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chasm

"chasm" has amethyst crystal in its chest which is used to protect against drunkenness. It represents the will to remain sober in the face of all the pressure to give in to alcohol. In the face of all the dark thoughts to remain unmoved to scream at the dark. To have such an immovable will for it to spill over.

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edge

"edge" was created with a women I was dating, it shows off our two different personalities. She is a jewelry designer and very structured with a definite flow and rhythm. My art form is a bit more chaotic and free flow. A peace and chaos and on the "edge" is where we meet, a place between me and her we share. Two individual pieces sharing a canvas together.

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wave of hurt

This piece embodies this alone, empty feeling I get after the rage quiets down. After pushing everything away how nothing is left but self. Alone in the ashes replaying events and questioning my actions. I would feel this after a night of burying myself in vodka, in trying to escape my life through alcohol. All the alone and empty I would try to escape would come rushing back in starting the cycle all over again for me.

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-step-

This is from my wormhole series. This painting symbolizes the struggle to push past anxiety and to enjoy the steps of life. To look around and enjoy my surroundings.

unnatural breath

When anxiety takes over and my mind starts to overwhelm me with possible scenarios that don't exist. I try to calm down by breathing but, my thoughts start to take over everything. In these moments I am lying to myself and to everyone around, in these moments I am taking in air like everything is fine. I am hoping that as I am pretending everything is fine they will eventually become ok and my mind will stop giving me all possible outcomes. That I will stop overwhelming myself, that it will subside and I will come out of it ok.

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All images are original works of art created by and are the sole property of Joshua Browder. These works of art may not be used for commercial purposes.