the cage

I have given in before to the temptation of alcohol so many times even after I got sober I have slipped. I sometimes feel as if I am trapped in a cage due to my inability to control myself with alcohol. As if I cant enjoy some normal functions with everyone else because it lingers in the back of my mind. Alcohol is so pervasive it is so hard to go anywhere where it isn't right in front of my face. I have to learn how to not look at it to be ok with it and not think about it. To be free from my cage.

painting and poem by Joshua Browder